I Hate When I Do It My Way

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his year I’m trying to stop making excuses for avoiding what God is clearly calling me to. I do not want Frank Sinatra’s “I Did It My Way” to make it onto the soundtrack of my life. No, thank you. Whether it be a load of laundry, dedicated prayer time, a good workout, showing purity and charity in relationships, or just shutting my damn mouth; I’ve become sadly good at coming up with reasons I don’t need to be His obedient and trusting daughter. Enough. I don’t end up feeling all that great when I get what I want, anyways! Like St. Catherine of Siena (I think..) said, “I know it’s from the enemy when I REALLY want to do it beforehand and feel awful after, and I know it’s from God when I want to avoid something beforehand but feel great after!” Actually, maybe my mom said that.. I don’t know.

Accountability partners, worthwhile apps (Hallow, Bible in a Year podcast, Goodreads, etc), tracking progress, and prayers for grace are all helping to make the CHOICE (whether I feel like it or not) to go for holiness over short-term happiness. So far? Failing miserably. But.. we carry on! As I always say: It’s not about being perfect, it’s about being His.